The road to "INSANEdom"??

"Great".."Yes".."Oh no".."shit".."what the hell!!" "Lets have fun"...."Arey kya masti yaar??Sab masti wasti chod de.Its all time waste"..

Look at the above lines. What a contrast!! Its hard 2 comprehend that all these can go 2gether..And if at all they do go -- then who would think of it??--only a mad, an insane fellow.. But in fact , at least since the last few days, these things hv been going on in my mind?? Asking myself a question - Have i gone mad??

I just donno whats been happening to me?? U wanna njoy the life but the very next minute it seems all the more boring..U define definite values for urself but then u seem 2 be warding them off like dust on ur table..I just donno what i want.. I go in for the glittering material thinking it 2 be DIAMOND only 2 discover later that its only a piece of broken glass..

Gone are the days when i used to be stable, firm in every decision i took.. NOW!! OH GOD SAVE ME PLS.. I just cant set my priorities right .. Am a confused lot..

What do you do when you have nothing to do?? Time pass!! Play games , Chat with people , Watch movies , Go for a round with friends?? Well!! What do i do ?? -- Sit idle..Movies?? Naah..They are so boring..A waste of time..Sleep?? Naah..I dont sleep more than 7 hours a day.. Games?? Well!! Occasionally..But they too are a waste of time... I just simply dont do anything.. SIT IDLE, LOST IN DREAMLAND.. Now..Isnt that madness??

Well!! Of course thats all madness.. But i love what I am & I dont give a damn whatever happens..

Too many things in too "LITTLE TIME"

In my only class of the day-Principles of Management,better known as POM ( had to attend it coz i was to get my paper) i got the "enlightment" of my life...


There was this presentation by Himanshu & group( which sadly i too have to make as part of the curriculum) on a company ( i dont remember whats its name)...Obviously bored, i tried to find ways to kill time..Having forgot my mobile in a rush to go to class, i had nothing to be engaged with..Then i spotted an ant on my table..I started playing with it...I saw it running for its life as i kept chasing it...Then i remembered that i too am a living being..God forbid it ever happens but if at all at any point of time i too might to run for my life...I placed myself in the ant's place...Oh!! What a horrible experience it might have been for it!!...I let it go that very moment...Even a small ant can change one's mind...Its like a a storm caused by a butterfly flapping its wings...This is "Butterfly Effect"...





Meanwhile the presentation was going on, on its monotonous path which to me seemed like a slow melancholy note...Then came Hitesh Bora to conclude it...I knew it from the very beginning that he will do something different...And he stood up to my expectations...More the moment he spoke,everybody laughed at him & the more we laughed the harder he made us laugh...In fact that is a talent in itself 'making others laugh at oneself'...Very few can even tolerate the thought of being the laughing stock...He turned the bunch of dosing eyes into a lively one...He stood on the dias with his hands on the table like Abhisekh Bachchan did in the movie "Guru" with his baritone engulfing the entire stadium,only this was a classroom...


The presentation was over & it was time for paper distribution...The POM paper had two parts-Part A being objective & the other subjective...The next thing that happened was a first in my life...In Part A i got 21 but in B i had got a "big fat zero"...It reminded me of my mom scolding me during my school days that if i dont study i'll get a zero in the exam...This time it was in reality but the good ( or rather bad) part of it was that there was no one to scold me...

I am writing this even as i have an MT exam tomorrow..Now let me study or else "history" will repeat itself

WHO CARES!!!

Ever since i returned from Delhi(i.e. on 28th) i have been thinking of studying but havent been able to till now...Everytime i make up my mind to study something or the other crops up & distracts me(thanx to my feeckle mindedness)...
Today i woke up around 5:30 & thought of studying but then this blog engaged me...

Earlier today i thought of attending all the classes but now am thinking otherwise..."Who cares what happens" is what i think...This is what i am-carefree,irresponsible,feeckle minded & what not!!

THE FIRST POST

Today i woke up and started working on my original blog(which is about my friends inn general)....Then i thought why not create a blog that portrays me as an individual..

In my later posts i would be writing about what all is happening in my daily life